Thursday, January 10, 2008

Stay Together For The Kids

So, I have always though that much of my family's actions were far from a norm, but then in the last 10 minutes, I started to think that maybe our "norm" is actually problematic. Last week, my parents celebrated their 23rd wedding anniversary. I am 22 and a half, so the numbers don't add up all the way. I've never known either of my parents to be real intimate or sensitive, but I felt that their celebration was off-putting. We (not they) celebrated by going out to the most romantic place in the world... Red Lobster. Which is also the most vegetarian friendly place in know. Diner was later followed by a family outing to Sweeney Todd.

Today, however, they were going to spend time alone and go see Jersey Boys. Now I don't remember exactly when my father purchased these tickets, of if they were a Christmas, Anniversary, or Birthday present, but every day until the day of was a fight. But when they got back, they both very much enjoyed the show. My dad went upstairs, my sister and I were using the computer, and my mom was in the kitchen. My mom is usually a very loud, to say the least, person, but she was awfully quiet. So... I asked if she was alright. To which I received no answer. I then found my way to the kitchen, to find her teary eyed. Our conversation went as followed:

"What's Wrong?" "Just right now we're not in sync." "Did you guys talk?" "No, sometimes it's just better to keep my mouth shut."
Now the question that has been running through my head is if this is a loveless marriage? Are they together for the kids? I never really questioned my parents not sharing a bed. And I don't have a clue on how intimate or not they are, but this was the exact opposite reason that I ran home for. I think blink has already written everything I feel:
It's hard to wake up
When the shades have been pulled shut
This house is haunted
It's so pathetic
It makes no sense at all.
I'm ripe with things to say
The words rot and fall away.
If a stupid poem could fix this home
I'd read it every day.

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost.
It's not right

Their anger hurts my ears
Been running strong for seven years
Rather than fix the problems, they never solve them
It makes no sense at all
I see them every day
We get along so why can't they?
If this is what he wants and this is what
she wants
Then why is there so much pain?

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost
It's not right

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost
It's not right

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